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The Waiting Game – I Want…

Waiting for things to happen is never an easy thing to do. Especially when the wait is pretty much indefinite.

But that is the situation I am stuck in.

I know what I want to happen, but when it will happen is a never-ending question. Because of circumstances that are pretty much out of my control.

I want to live with him, in a place that is so drastically different than where I have to call home now. Because I don’t always feel safe at home (I won’t go into details – they’re not the point here).

I want to live in a place I feel like I can be myself. Somewhere I am not afraid of an argument happening. Somewhere I can dress however I want and not be judged for it. Somewhere I can wear pajamas all day on a a weekend and not get funny looks or told to put some clothes on. Somewhere that feels more like home.

I want to collapse into bed with him at the end of the day. I want to fall asleep wrapped in his arms. I want to wake up in the morning and see his face first thing. I want to know that I’m always safe no matter what.

I want the rest of my life to be spent with him. I want him to be the father of my kids. I want him to be the one I lean on when it is too much for me to handle alone. I want to make life mistakes with him. I want to have adventures with him. I want to find things to celebrate with him. I want to make big deals out of little things with him.

Random thought: I really should get on registering for the fall semester so I make sure I have my classes locked in and I don’t lose them.

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About Me

Hello! Welcome! My name is Katy!
You can find me drinking coffee until it’s time for wine. Currently have 5 tattoos, but plans for more are in the works.
I’m a birthmom over 8 years post placement. I’ve been in a birthmom support group since November 2018, and will be leading my own come May 2023.
On Sunday mornings you can usually find me in the nursery or on the production team at church.
Various times throughout the year, you can find me staying with someone’s dog(s) while they’re away on a trip – so don’t be surprised if there are stories or pictures every so often.

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