always drinking coffee | forever dreaming about tattoos

Trying to Save My Sanity

Those days where you look outside and the weather matches your mood? Today is one of those days. It’s chilly and rainy and horridly dreary outside. And I’m feeling pretty crappy today. I’m not quite sure why, but I am. And that’s really just the way it goes sometimes.

Maybe I’m missing someone.
Maybe I just woke up on the wrong side of the day.
Maybe I’m dreading the math test I was supposed to take today – but forgot my exam pass and wallet so I can’t take it now, which means I have to come back today or tomorrow to take it.
Maybe I’m just simply having a bad day – and it’s 2pm so that’s possible.

I don’t have the answer. But that’s ok.

What sounds good right now is: curling up at home in the library, under a blanket, with a mug of vanilla chai, with a book to read. Yes, that really is what today makes me want to do. But I’m stuck at school. 14 hours on campus. It makes for some long days.

I may go through books on my kindle and see if I can find something to read. I’ve got plenty there – it’s just a matter of choosing one and starting to read.

I really don’t know what I’m trying to accomplish here, with this post, but I needed something to do, so this is what I came up with. Sure, I could be doing a million other things. However, there a words/thoughts flying around in my brain preventing me from truly focusing on anything besides releasing anything else.

My partner and I did our presentation in deaf culture that was supposed to be done on Monday. There were all kinds of technical difficulties that prevented more than one and a half groups from going. But oh well. I’m done now and that’s all that matters to me.

I ran into someone from church after my class finished and walked with her to her next class. Next Monday she said I’m welcome to come hang out with her and she’ll take a break from grading papers for a bit to chat. So that’ll be something different. And it’ll give me a chance to do something else besides homework or blogging in my massive gap between classes.

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About Me

Hello! Welcome! My name is Katy!
You can find me drinking coffee until it’s time for wine. Currently have 5 tattoos, but plans for more are in the works.
I’m a birthmom over 8 years post placement. I’ve been in a birthmom support group since November 2018, and will be leading my own come May 2023.
On Sunday mornings you can usually find me in the nursery or on the production team at church.
Various times throughout the year, you can find me staying with someone’s dog(s) while they’re away on a trip – so don’t be surprised if there are stories or pictures every so often.

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