Emotional Exhaustion

Things have happened recently that have left me emotionally exhausted. That’s not to say that I haven’t enjoyed them, because I really have. But they’re just going to really take some time to recover from.

One thing that I’ve recently found, and posted on my blog’s Facebook page, was a self-care printable. If you click the link for the Facebook page, you need to scroll back to June 30 – there’s really not too much to go through. But if you’re too lazy to do that (honestly, I can’t say that I blame you), or you’re on your phone and it’s not that simple to go find it, I’ll go ahead and type it out for you:

Everything Is Awful and I’m Not Okay:
questions to ask before giving up

Are you hydrated?
If not, have a glass of water.

Have you eaten in the past three hours?
If not, get some food – something with protein, not just simple carbs. Perhaps some nuts or hummus?

Have you showered in the past day?
If not, take a shower right now.

Have you stretched your legs in the past day?
If not, do so right now. If you don’t have the energy for a run or a trip to the gym, just walk around the blog, then keep walking as long as you please. If the weather’s crap, drive to a big box store (e.g. Target) and go on a brisk walk through the aisles you normally skip.

Have you said something nice to someone in the past day?
Do so, whether online or in person. Make it genuine: wait until you see something really wonderful about someone, and tell them about it.

Have you moved your body to music in the past day?
If not, jog for the length of an EDM song at your favorite tempo, or just dance around the room for the length of an upbeat song.

Have you cuddled a living being in the past two days?
If not, do so. Don’t be afraid to ask for hugs from friends or friends’ pets. Most of them will enjoy the cuddles too; you’re not imposing on them.

Have you seen a therapist in the past few days?
If not, hang on until your next therapy visit and talk through things then.

Have you changed any of your medications in the past couple of weeks, including skipped dosages or a change in generic prescription brand?
That may be screwing with your head. Give things a few days, then talk to your doctor if it doesn’t settle down.

If daytime: are you dressed?
If not, put on clean clothes that aren’t pajamas. Give yourself permission to wear something special, whether it’s a funny t-shirt or a pretty dress.

If nighttime: are you sleepy and fatigued but resisting going to sleep?
Put on pajamas, make yourself cozy in bed with a teddy bear and the sound of falling rain, and close your eyes for fifteen minutes – no electronic screens allowed. If you’re still awake after that, you can get up again; no pressure.

Do you feel ineffective?
Pause right now and get something small completed, whether it’s responding to an e-mail, loading up the dishwasher, or packing your gym bag for your next trip. Good job!

Do you feel unattractive?
Take a goddamn selfie. Your friends will remind you how great you look, and you’ll help fight society’s restrictions on what beauty can look like.

Do you feel paralyzed by indecision?
Give yourself ten minutes to sit back and figure out a game plan for the day. If a particular decision or problem is still being a roadblock, simply set it aside for now, and pick something else that seems doable. Right now, the important part is to break through that stasis, even if it means doing something trivial.

Have you over-exerted yourself lately – physically, emotionally, socially, or intellectually?
That can take a toll that lingers for days. Give yourself a break in that area, whether it’s physical rest, taking time alone, or relaxing with some silly entertainment.

Have you waited a week?
Sometimes our perception of life is skewed and we can’t even tell that we’re not thinking clearly, and there’s no obvious external cause. It happens. Keep yourself going for a full week, whatever it takes, and see if you still feel the same way then.

So, since I know that I’ve emotionally exhausted myself, I decided to go through this sheet.

Yes, I’m hydrated.
Yes, I’ve eaten in the past 3 hours.
Yes, I’ve showered.
Yes, I’ve stretched my legs.
Yes, I’ve said something nice to someone.
No, I hadn’t moved my body to music. (Now that I’m writing this I have though.)
Yes, I cuddled a living being earlier today.
No – I don’t see a therapist (But that’s an issue for another post – maybe someday).
Yes, I had to skip a dose earlier this week, and I missed a dose today. Things will get back on track tomorrow though.
It’s currently nighttime, I’m not yet sleepy buy my meds will be making me sleepy soon enough.
I felt ineffective, but then I called a friend I’d not talked to in too long and felt better.
I do feel slightly unattractive, but I’m gonna put the selfie off till tomorrow.
There is a decision that’s unable to be made right now, but it’ll happen in time – and I’m accepting of that.
I definitely emotionally exerted myself today, and I’m going to take time over the next several days to recover – in whatever way that looks like.
I don’t know that I really need to wait a week for some of these issues – because the decision will be made when the time is right, and I can’t rush that.

This emotional recovery, it’s going to take time, and I’m going to have to accept that. This happened to me about a month and a half ago as well. I don’t know exactly how long the recovery took. I just know that it took as long as was necessary. Whether I like it or not, I can’t rush this kind of thing.

There are things that make it easier, but those are temporary. Honestly? That’s fine. I don’t want something to come in and easily reverse the effects of what I’ve gone through. Because that would mean that what I went through shouldn’t have had that the strong effect on me that it did.

But I’ve learned that there is no right or wrong way for something to affect me because everyone is different. Some people may have been able to handle what I went through with little emotional drainage, while others may not have been able to handle it at all. And you know what? That’s perfectly ok. Why? Because we’re all individuals, and we’re each unique.

Book Tour: CONSUMED by J.C. Hannigan



July 20-27, 2015


Consumed_eBook_CoverTitle: Consumed (Collide Series Book 2)

Author: J.C. Hannigan

Publisher: Booktrope Publishing

Re-Release: July 1st, 2015

Purchase Link: http://tinyurl.com/p4shg7t


Jax Walker is a hard man to resist. He’s tall, dark, and delicious. Harlow didn’t plan on falling for another, with her heart still stuck on Iain. But it’s so hard with him gone. And she’s been aching since they last touched. Two whole years of silent wondering; of desperate sleepless longing. Fate, however, may have other plans. Just as Harlow’s ready to open herself to new love, her whole world is pulled into a twisting and painful spiral. In this new adult novel, readers are consumed by the collision of past and present. Raw and dark, this emotional minefield is the perfect second book in the continuing story of Harlow Jones.

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Re-Release: May 11th 2015

Purchase Link: http://tinyurl.com/q29gala


Harlow Jones has a troubled past, and a questionable future. Surrounded by death, tragedy, and intrigue, she is forced to mature long before her time. Plagued by anxiety and depression, she hides her inner turmoil with spite and sarcasm. Her thick skin is impenetrable…or so she thought. Until she becomes involved with her grade twelve English teacher. In this exclusive entry into the new adult genre, with raw style that is as dark as it is poignant, Collide presents the ultimate choice: forbidden love or doing the right thing.


JC Hannigan lives in Ontario, Canada with her husband, their two sons, and two dogs. She writes contemporary romance, through which she brings to light awareness of mental health and social challenges. Like any good Canadian, she loves hiking and carbs. Collide is her first novel.

I really wanted to get to know Harlow Jones a little better, so I did a little Character Interview with her. Hope you enjoy!!

1) What about Mr. Bentley drew you in?

I don’t know, everything, the entire package. His eyes, the way he held himself, the way he dressed…his aura, if that makes sense? The way he looked at me and just…saw me, how I wanted to be seen.

2) What do you do to face your anxiety head on?

I’m stubborn, I grit through it. I use words, putting pen to paper and unleashing all the ugly out on paper that nobody will ever see. I also started exercising more, as a way to channel that energy and that helped.

3) How difficult was it to help Jenna with everything pertaining to her pregnancy? Do you think she’ll ever meet her daughter or her adoptive parents?

It was really difficult. I’d never been in a situation like that myself, I’d never known anybody who was pregnant before – except for a teacher I had in grade school. All I knew about pregnancy was the things I saw on movies or read in books. I didn’t really know ALL the complicated that come with it, and those are tenfold when the woman was raped and didn’t want the baby. I’m not sure if Jenna will ever meet her daughter face to face, but she met the adoptive parents in the hospital and before, when she chose them.

4) Do you think you’ll ever reconnect with Mr. Bentley? 

I don’t know. I feel like I can’t answer that without giving away spoilers, and J.C. would get pissed about that.

5) If you were to get a tattoo, what do you think you would get?

Probably a sun. A glowing, bright, beautiful sun so that I could always carry that light with me.

Connect with J.C. Hannigan:

Facebook: www.facebook.com/jcahannigan

Twitter: @jcahannigan

Google +: http://tinyurl.com/qaqex3f

Website: http://www.jchannigan.com


3 eBook Sets of Collide Series (Books 1 & 2)

CLOSES July 28, 2015

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And now, just for fun, here are some teasers from COLLIDE:

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And some teasers for CONSUMED:

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I’m Still Here/Birth Control Drama

(Warning: Talk of feminine appts in this post, so men may not want to read)

I’m so sorry I haven’t been around as much lately. Things have just been a big crazy as I’ve been adjusting to a summer schedule with my younger brother being home. I worked Vacation Bible School in the mornings at my church last week. I’ve had a few dr appts over the past week or so and had to make plans for more.

But, on a more positive note, I’m finally feeling like I have my medication under control. So I don’t have to go back to my psychiatrist until early September.

My primary care thinks my birth control is causing issues with blood pressure. So she’s told me that I need to stop taking the pill and find something without estrogen. So I made an appt with my ob/gyn – I needed to go in for my annual exam anyway – and discussed what my options were. I could’ve gone with an IUD, the implant, or a shot. My ob/gyn said she doesn’t really like to do the shot because if there are side effects there’s no way to undo it. We didn’t really talk much about the implant, all she did was mention it and how long it lasts – like 3 years. Then she brought up the IUD. There’s two different kinds – copper and hormonal. The copper lasts up to 10 years. The hormonal lasts up to 5 years. Because of the blood pressure thing, we decided that we’ll try to copper IUD first and see how it goes. The only think I don’t like about it is that it can possibly make my period even heavier than it already is. I’m gonna be a VERY unhappy camper if that happens. I’ll be going back and asking if the hormonal IUD is a possibility for me. There are two problems with going with the IUD: 1) they don’t carry them in the office and therefore have to be ordered and 2) they have to be inserted when you’re on your period.

I filled out the paperwork to order the copper IUD. I was told that it has to go through my insurance to make sure it’s covered and then it has to be shipped to the office. Well, my period is supposed to start this coming Saturday. There’s no way that it’ll be here by then. I’ll be lucky to hear whether or not it’s covered by then. So my next period is in August, due to start the day I leave for a week out of state at the beach.

I talked to my mom about that and she suggested trying to mess with my birth control pills and seeing if I can make my period earlier so that the IUD could possibly be put in before we leave. I think it’s definitely possible because I know how long it takes for my period to start after I start the placebo pills.

Changing subjects but still talking about the ob/gyn. During the annual exam, she also discovered a cyst in my left breast and told me I need to get an ultrasound of it. It’s probably nothing to worry about. But it’s still kinda scary. I mean, she said based on my age a cyst would make the most sense, but it’s still procedure and precaution to get it further examined.

This morning I had the ultrasound and everything turned out to be fine. Nothing to worry about. What a relief…

Back to the birth control issue drama. A little while after I got home, I got a call from the company my ob/gyn office sent the ParaGuard (copper IUD) order to. My insurance pharmacy benefits won’t cover it, so we’d have to pay out of pocket – and that would be like $xxx or more, just way to freaking expensive.

So I called my insurance company, and wound up spending like 45 minutes on the phone with them. But things worked out. The woman I spoke with made calls to other ob/gyn offices asking all the questions for me. She helped me set up appointments with a couple other offices. I wound up with a consultation this Friday at an office that’s about 8 miles form my house. They carry the ParaGuard in office and they’ll bill my insurance. So now hopefully I won’t have to wait till August or September to get off the pill and have the IUD inserted.