New Tattoo

The day after Valentines Day I drove out to Winchester and finally got my second tattoo.

People love to ask me why I went to a shop that’s so far away. It’s a familiar, trusted place. And I thoroughly admire the work of both artists there. Plus, sometimes you simply want to go for a road trip, and there’s just something about taking one with a clear destination. 

It’s a design that I had been looking at for nearly three and a half years. And I was originally going to get it almost two and a half years ago. But at that point, I was let go from my job, all my money went to things that needed to be paid, and then I totalled my truck two days after I had planned to get the tattoo.

This design (insert image later) is the adoption symbol with the Celtic Knot used as the triangle, all done as one line. I have Scotch-Irish heritage, on my mother’s side. The one great-grandmother I knew is where the Irish heritage comes from. If you’ve been around for a while, you know that I placed my daughter for adoption just over five and a half years ago. And something I remembered a few months ago is that my great-grandmother was also a foster mom. So, the two aspects are wound together tighter than I had realized.

NaBloPoMo – Day 30

Make a list of 30 things that make you smile

  1. good books
  2. new episodes of my favorite show(s) on Netflix
  3. perfume
  4. LuLaRoe
  5. shea/cocoa butter
  6. cozy blankets
  7. hoodies
  8. coffee
  9. free stuff for hosting parties
  10. perfectly applying lipstick first try
  11. hugs
  12. birth control I don’t have to worry about daily
  13. catching up with friends
  14. seeing former teachers I really liked
  15. snuggling little tiny babies
  16. Thanksgiving at my aunt’s house
  17. The Grand Tour on Amazon Prime
  18. jeans that fit perfectly
  19. perfectly painted nails 
  20. putting feelings down on paper
  21. driving “back country” roads
  22. knee socks
  23. boots 
  24. music that fits the mood prefectly
  25. crawling into bed after a long day
  26. sweater/hoodie weather
  27. YouTube stationary hauls & posts on IG
  28. sentimental gifts
  29. getting new pictures of my daughter
  30. when I get to see my daughter

Sisterhood of the World Blogger Award

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January 2nd, I was nominated for the Sisterhood of the World Blogger Award by Amy, who writes over at Under the Surface. Her nomination actually came at a good time for me because I’m hoping to get back into blogging in 2016. I’m currently working on a guest post for this blog, and I can’t wait to hopefully have more guest posts up here on CoffeeTattoos this year.

The Rules:

  • Thank the blogger who gave you the award and link back to their blog
  • Answer the 10 questions given to you
  • Nominate 10 bloggers for the award
  • Write 10 questions for your nominees to answer
  • Display the award on your blog or post

My Answers

How do you like to write? (Include the environment you like to be in, the mood you like to be in and any extras you like to have such as a mug of tea and a blanket…)

When I blog, I tend to be in my bedroom. Usually I’m sitting on my bed with my computer sitting on a lap desk. Generally it’s late at night when I do most of my writing. Often, because I do my writing at night, I’m quite lonely; however, being lonely gives me a different perspective on things and allows me to be a little more honest about what I’m feeling.
As for extras I like to have with me when I’m writing, there aren’t really any staples. Although I do like to listen to music (this is one of my favorite playlists) while I’m working. 

Where do you find the topics you write about?

I know that some people have certain theme for their blogs – like they’re a music, a beauty, or a fashion blogger – but that’s not something that I think I could commit myself to. So that means that my topics come from wherever I find them. I do tend to write about my mental health journey often however. But as for my other topics, there’s no rhyme or reason as to where I find them.

What are your blogging pet peeves?

  • People who do nothing but product reviews
  • People who try to push their opinion on others
  • People who argue with their readers in the comments when they disagree with them

What draws your attention to find a blog and makes you want to follow it?

There really isn’t anything in specific that draws my attention to a blog. I read all posts on a range of topics.
I mean, yes, one of my favorite bloggers (Sarcastica) blogs a good bit about her kids, but she also do posts about other things – like her writing or MHE (you can find some of her posts about it here) or her depression and anxiety. That’s one of my favorite things about her, she doesn’t limit herself to one thing.
If you’re looking to get me to subscribe to/follow your blog, just give me some time to look through what you’ve posted in the past and make my decision.

If there was something you could change in your blogging past, what would it be and why?

Honestly, I hate how people always ask this question. As much as I would love to analyze my blogging history and give you a precise answer about what I would change, I can’t. Because I don’t that think I would be the same blogger I am today if I went back and changed something in my past.
It’s just like life, if you went back to your past and changed something, everything in the future would change as a result of that and you would no longer be the same person you are today.

What is the main thing that keeps you blogging regularly?

Since I started this blog in December 2013, I haven’t really had a set schedule for when I blog. I would just post whenever I felt like I had something to say, however frequently or infrequently that was.
Now that CoffeeTattoos is two years old, and I put up a post the past two Fridays, I’m hoping that I can continue to push myself to expand my writing skills by finding things to post every Friday.
It may not always be much of a post, but I promise that I will do my best to post every week.

In two years time where would you like your blog to be?

I don’t think I have a dream of where my blog will end up going. I used to think that it was important to have a blog that hundreds, or thousands, of people read, but I’ve realized in the last couple years that that’s really not important.
I just want my blog

  • to continue to be a creative outlet for me
  • to be a place for me to connect with my readers
  • to be a way to reach out and get to know other bloggers

Do you share your blog with people you know in real life or is it all online only?

I am selective with who I share my blog with. There are people in real life who know about my blog (my aunt saw me typing and asked if she was allowed to read it). However, there are more people online who know about it. But when I really stop and think about it, my online friends are also my friends in real life – so the answer is both.

What’s your favorite ways to connect with other writers/bloggers?

This is a awful thing to say, but I rarely comment on other blog posts. It’s not that I don’t like connecting with other blogger, but I just don’t really know what to say in response to what they’ve written.
I guess, this year I should make a point of doing better to respond to blog posts others have written.

Do you have any tips you would like to share with fellow bloggers?

The only two pieces of advice I have for fellow bloggers is something that Rachel Thompson said:

  • Give yourself permission to write on ANY topic (even if it will ruffle feathers)
  • Write what scares you

My Nominees

  1. Sarah Fader (Old School/New School Mom)
  2. Jess Davis (Sarcastica)
  3. Marisa Lancing (Mad Girl’s Lament)
  4. Sarah Comerford (The Real Sarah C)
  5. Nicole Lyons (The Lithium Chronicles)
  6. Allie Burke (Organic Coffee, Haphazardly)
  7. Jessica Scarlett (Dabbling in Food Porn)
  8. Courtney Keesee (Courtney’s Voice)
  9. Bipolar On Fire
  10. Kelley (Free of Her Cage)

My 10 Questions

  1. If you could have lunch with anyone, dead or alive, who would it be? Why? What would you talk about?
  2. What are your blogging goals for 2016?
  3. How are you feeling, emotionally, about the year ahead?
  4. When do you think people should have to decide what they want to do with their life? Is 18 too young?
  5. Why do you think there is so much stigma surrounding mental illness, admitting that you need help, and getting said help?
  6. Do you believe in love at first sight or soulmates?
  7. Is there anything you want to write about on your blog but you’re afraid to? If so, I think you should write about that for one of your next posts.
  8. When it comes to kids wanting to dye their hair (any color) or pierce their cartilage or nose when they’re in middle or high school, would you let your child do that? Why or why not?
  9. When it comes to planners, what do you do? Do you use a bullet journal, Erin Condren, Filofax, etc? Or if you don’t use one of those, take a few minutes to research them all and tell me what you would like to start using.
  10. What was your favorite nonfiction book that you read in 2015? How did you find it? Who wrote it? What was it about?

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I hope everyone enjoyed getting to know about my blogging life and history. I can’t wait to hear your answers to my questions!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SARAH “KOALA” FADER

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Happy Birthday Sarah “Koala” Fader

Recently, Nicole of The Lithium Chronicles had a birthday. A friend of hers wrote a post celebringting her birthday. It was absolutely beautiful. So I decided that I wanted to do one for Sarah of Old School New School Mom. She’s a huge part of my life since I wrote my first post and then later when I joined Stigma Fighters staff. So that I would have a special post for her today, I asked fellow Stigma Fighters if they had any special memories they wanted to share… And this is what I got back:


Sarah & Courtney NY School EventSarah & CourtneyThe first one to send me anything was Courtney of Courtney’s Voice. She sent me a photo from when she went up to New York to see Sarah and participate in an event happening at a college up there. They both did separate break-out sessions, and were warmly welcomed. From what I heard from them, everyone seemed to love them. Courtney also recorded a video of Sarah trying to walk along a path and catch/throw balls while wearing drunk goggles, click here to watch.


Kitt just wanted to say a little something to let Sarah know how much she means to her:

Sarah, thank you for creating Stigma Fighters. Thank you for sharing our stories, for putting them online, for compiling them into an anthology. Happy Birthday for the Ultimate Stigma Fighter. Love, Kitt


Then we had another person, Gabe Howard, send Sarah a couple of shirts he designed:
Bipolar shirt Gabe #AwesomePotatoes

He also sent in a photo of him and his wife wearing Stigma Fighters shirts:

Gabe and Kendall

And he also requested that I share this small from him: “Gabe says you are #awesomepotatoes!!”


Then we had a few photos sent in by Aubrey of Too Much Aubrey:

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Another wonderful lady, JC of Sarcastica, had a few words to say:

Sarah is the best kind of person ever, because coffee ice cream is the best kind of ice cream ever. I mean, it’s coffee AND ice cream in one. Sarah is the number 1 cheerleader of all her friends and she’s always picking people up when they stumble. Sarah is the best! – xoxo love JC who has no pictures cause she lives in stupid Canada


Courtney and Allie (our Stigma Fighters VP) of Organic Coffee Haphazardly, finally convinced Sarah to read The Fault in Our Stars:

Sarah Reads TFiOS


These are some of my favorite photos of the wonderful,
amazing,
fantabulous,
awesome,
kick-ass Sarah “Koala” Fader:

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Self-Image

Things haven’t exactly been the greatest for me recently. But a friend of mine has been helping me emotionally. I didn’t ask him to, it’s just what he does. He always has been like that.

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Those are the same picture. The one on the left is taken with my phone camera. The one on the right is filtered (with Glow) using an app called NoCrop.

I never realized how I can feel about myself when I put on makeup until someone says something to me. It’s odd. I want to feel good about myself, but it’s almost like I just don’t know how.

I’ve had two people compliment my makeup today. The weirdest part is that I’m not wearing anything but lipstick. No blush, no eyeliner, no mascara, no eyeshadow. Nothing but lipstick. It almost makes me feel good about my face if multiple people think I’m wearing more than I actually am.

It makes me want to wear makeup more often. Not like, caking it on. But just enough that I feel like I’m wearing some and someone might notice.

Stigma Fighters: The Book

So, yesterday I mentioned my idea to make Stigma Fighters into a book. Then last night I talked to Sarah Fader about it and it’s happening. Stigma Fighters is becoming a book!

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Currently we’re compiling everyone’s essays for editing. The deadline to send things in is January 1st.

I started working on all of the editing this morning. In reading all of the essays that everyone have written I had forgotten how interesting everything was. I mean, I read them all as they were posted but I didn’t remember every little detail. It would be impossible to retain everything they expressed in their work.

The editing process is a new thing for me. I’ve never done this before. It’s honestly quite scary and overwhelming, but I’m excited about it.

If you receive a message from me asking you to look at certain parts of your essay, please do not take it personally. Sarah and I are simply trying to make this the absolute best that we can.

I am so incredibly excited about everything that we’re doing. I can’t wait till it’s done and we have something we can show people. It’ll be especially exciting when we start our college campus tour.

This book would be the perfect thing to sell there. If students have one before Stigma Fighters come to their school, they could ask for a certain person to come speak. It would be amazing. They would have the opportunity to kind of help plan what the event at their school would be like.

If you have any questions, please email Sarah or myself at: sarahfader@gmail.com or mydnitezangel@gmail.com

Brain Spill

Sometimes you want to write but you just don’t know what. There’s nothing you can do except sit there staring at the blank paper (or computer screen) thinking about a million different things…

  • What’s gonna be easy to write about right now?
  • What’s gonna take time to put into words?
  • What’s something other people would want to read?
  • What’s not gonna be too overwhelming?

There are several things I could write about right now, but, the one I have the most to say about I have the feeling would be overwhelming for me right now. Although, maybe that would be good for me right now. Maybe not going into everything, but just to start acknowledging what I’m feeling and dealing with.  Continue reading “Brain Spill”